Two Worlds

Thank you for following along with our blog, whoever you are. We appreciate the good words, prayers and support that continues to roll in. I apologize that this post is a bit heavy, but I felt it important to share our hearts. We’ll post another update very soon with lighter bits – including pictures and fun stories from our travels thus far. Cheers to you and yours.

It’s difficult to put into words exactly the place we’ve found ourselves over the last few weeks as a family. I think we always expected this journey would have a bit of a cleansing and refreshing of our approach to life. Undoubtedly we knew it would be a life changing experience. Yet, even as that may be true, when faced with the reality of being refined by sudden change, the emotional nature of altered perspectives has left us in a state of suspension – equally weightless and out of the comfort of control.

There’s a sense of being between two worlds, and feeling the strain of being pulled in two directions. On one side is a church family that has played a major role in the greatest healing period of our lives – a community that has been vital in the restoration of our marriage and a beacon of hope for us as we have pressed on into the spirit of God. On the other is the family we have found ourselves immediately adopted into here in England. Suddenly and without warning, we have been thrust into an anointed group of ministers and forerunners that live with an amazing sense of purpose and inspire us on a daily basis.

We miss home, and yet have never felt more sure that we’re in the exact right place for this season.

The duration of this season remains to be seen, of course. And there are practical reasons that would make it very difficult for us to stay on for an extended period of time. It also may be true that our calling is for only a season, and we are meant to return home with a renewed sense of purpose and anointing. Though it feels selfish at times, the refining may perhaps be simply for us to recharge and extend our reach back home. The pendulum swing between staying and going has a constant sway and we are mindful of it on a nearly hourly basis.

We are in constant prayer and reflection for clarity on the purpose and direction for our life. While the struggle of discovering a calling has been evident in each of our lives for years, it’s not been more at the forefront of our everyday lives as it is now. The challenge, somewhat obviously, is in the attempts to be still and listen to what God is telling us in our hearts. There’s also the importance of living in the now – being fully present for the people and circumstances immediately in our lives.

Whatever the future holds, we know for certain that we’re in the path of God and feel assured that our lives will be unequivocally and irrevocably changed for the better.